You finally gave your heart away The recipient returned to sender Now you don’t want to ever hurt again So you’re incapable of surrender You barely survived the heartbreak You say you can’t do it again But if you don’t keep putting your heart at risk Love will never win I know it’s a dilemma I’ve known that pain myself If the first person thought I was not enough How can I ever trust someone else? There’s some validity to that logic No one wants to suffer But putting ourselves out there despite the risk Is how we find each other Besides holding back doesn’t hurt the one Who caused you so much pain In the end you only hurt yourself By not giving your heart to gain You see every time you survive a heartbreak Then get back in the saddle You’re secretly becoming more like God Whose Love will never lose a battle Didn’t you know that while God’s watching us God’s heart is always breaking But Love always comes in and fills the gaps In the midst of our forsaking Imagine if most of your children Lie and say they love you But take the gifts you have to them And put those very things above you You try to teach them to use them wisely They push you away and will not listen Only thinking of themselves as usual They take what’s One and cause division So you send them Love’s instructors But they won’t listen to them either Instead they ignore or murder them Then label them deceiver Or worse they pretend to worship them In order to make them something special And when they fail to live like them They blame it on the Devil Any excuse that they can think of To do what they want to do Their only goal is simply to feel they’re right To justify ignoring you Meanwhile your heart is breaking You feel like you’ll die inside But you surrender because you know the Truth And instantly you’re more alive It’s the Mystery of the Heartbreak By giving your Love you will get more For Love is the gift that you received That by faith is always restored
I despise the fact that you make me necessary And yet I love you because I’m here But I am pained by watching you on your path Knowing I’m powerless to interfere In your weakness I find my strength Though it is the last thing on my mind Your emptiness gives me a place to fill But this too will end with time In this place we are often seen as enemies In Truth, together we express the One Because you’re insecure, I must show I’m not Just as darkness creates a need for Sun You are my partner that I cannot work with Bound together by what keeps us apart Although we’ll never occupy each other’s space We’ve been together from the start.
I really don’t get it When liars get mad at being lied to Bending truth like a pretzel But cry “foul” when others tried too I’m totally confused By cheaters who hate a cheater Their tragedy is a comedy All of the drama but no theater I have no time for manipulators Who hate being controlled I’m past your passive aggression You can’t imagine the heavy toll And polite people are perplexing I’d rather be kind than nice Don’t tell me what you think I want to hear Because in time there is a price And the “Holier than thou”, Who are you trying to convince? God sees your thoughts and so do I So you can cut it with pretense And I can’t forget emotional martyrs Who find joy every time they suffer Feeling good is like a full assault From which they always have a buffer Then there’s the guilty for feeling guilty The ashamed of feeling shame The people who say “I’m bored” so much You’d think it was their name There’re those who give advice They never seem to take And the ones who always “keep it real” By being really fake Every kind of reactive being Whose heads are such a mess But act like they have the whole thing down But when confronted won’t confess I can’t tell if they’re pretending Or if they know not what they do All I know is if I’m “too direct” They say “Something‘s wrong with you” If I say exactly what I mean They ask “What do you mean by that?” If I actually answer what they have asked They say, “You’re too serious with all your facts.” If I have no opinion on certain things Because I have never explored them They proclaim “experience-less expertise” But are offended if I ignore them They get angry if I talk calmly Saying, “You don’t have any feelings.” Little things can throw them off They want my thoughts while they’re concealing They are killers afraid of dying Committing murder with their mouths Always seeking clemency But won’t give benefit of the doubt And yet, I’m the one they call divergent Because I’m slow to pick up norms Discovering life as it shows up Instead of aiming to conform It’s enough to make me crazy But I’m not trying to be neurotic I refuse to believe it’s normalcy To use emotions like narcotics However this is what I witness In the way that folks react Feeling their way through unseen worlds Then crashing like trains that go off track But when confronted about their behavior They cry and say, “I didn’t mean it.” It’s like having your cake and eating it too Now isn’t that convenient?
I am not your enemy Even though you were taught that decision I see the Universe as it can only be Absent of division Whether I choose to agree or not Everything is connected But in the illusion of the divided mind Anything can be dissected We split atoms and we split up families Draw invisible lines called borders But can’t admit we invented it In a war against natural order Somehow we believe the lies we tell More than the truth that’s in our faces Competing for what is infinite Just for the thrill of “winning races” But there is no competition Once you take away the lies And wake up to the disturbing fact That we’re all collectively hypnotized
I noticed something the other day That I can’t get out of my head If you move the “c” up to the front Reactive spells creative instead I wondered if it was intentional Did the makers of the language know Was it a clue for those who seek the Way To maintain a Life in Flow? They say, “Be creative, not reactive Or at least reactively creative This is the Way of wondering ones For whom the Way of Flow is Native Embrace the Mystery Be present with The Presence Instead of being pushed and pulled Make movements from your Essence” Or perhaps it’s just a coincidence Onto which I’m projecting meaning Maybe reaction is creation too Even when it isn’t seeming I’ll possibly never know for certain But still I have the choice To choose Reaction or Creation In how I use my voice
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We all entered this given world Shining ever so brightly Until we were handed a cloak of shadows And were taught to take our shining lightly The shadow cloaks that we are given Are all different, but the same Put on by people who we’re born to trust But started lying with our name They called us a moniker we didn’t choose That made them feel a certain way Perhaps a projection of someone’s past That we’re expected to display Rather than get to know us And discover who we are They tell us who we’re supposed to be And complain if we stray far But it’s not that I’m trying to blame them They did what they knew to do Because before they projected onto us They were cloaked in shadows too They too were forced into a box Aimed to maintain society They believed the lies that were told to them Before they ever lied to me Some were told the lie that they were best When compared to other people While some were told that they are worst And must forever work at achieving equal But, both these states are lies There’s no one above or below another And the truth is there’s no shadow here That another’s light cannot uncover You see all of us were meant to shine So that this world won’t be in dark And each of us has the work to do Of dissolving shadows with our spark In so doing we don’t just free ourselves We free all who came before Until the world is filled with shining lights Who wear shadow cloaks no more
I’m weak And I’m not afraid to admit it And in this I find my strength Though many will not get it I’m broken In all the right places Accepting what is Gives me the power to truly face this I’m ignorant I don’t know what the deal is Which gives me the eyes to see The reality of what real is I’m helpless I can do nothing on my own Which is why I ask for help From the One who is my Home So, I’m hopeful That I will wake while we are dreaming Seeing in the dark To the essence of our being
The truth is they won’t accept you Because you won’t accept that you’re accepted You remind them of the lies they told Because you reflect what they projected The denial of your existence Protects identities that don’t exist And now you want to be like them What part of the message did you miss? Who you are before you’re born Is more true than you can know When you let someone tell you who you are Who has no power to make it so That’s why I live and keep on living Without the dream of keeping score Knowing absence from the body Is Presence with the Lord And by “Presence with the Lord”, I mean I Am Presence too Because the One You Are when You’re with God Can never be taken away from You