So how did I get this life?
This person that I be
I wonder if I’m happy
I wonder if I’m free
The reality is I can’t feel it
These things that people do
The stuff that makes them excited
I can’t tell if it is true
I see it and it makes me wonder
Is this the way that I should feel?
Am I full or am I empty?
I wonder which is real
It’s not like I just got here
I’ve been here all my life
But still I feel unseen out here
Like someone turned out all the lights
I’ve taught myself to participate
I can do the conversations
But sometimes it’s just like Groundhog Day
Repeating the exact same situations
What I want is something different
Almost impossible to describe
I don’t just want to make it here
My intention is to thrive
I’m not just living for my next fix
Like I’m fundamentally broken
I am emerging from the mouth of Wholeness Itself
The Word that never comes back void once it is spoken
That’s why I’m in wonder
Why do so many choose the lesser gift?
Choosing the package over the content
Is like getting high without the lift
While we think we’re going up
We’re really headed down
Heels over head, the world just flipped
Soon to crashland on the ground
And then again I wonder
Why can’t we see this on the way?
We’ve been warned this time was coming
Despite not knowing the actual day
But I guess that’s human nature
We always think that we’re immune
Somehow we believe we can be in harmony
While never seeking to be in tune
How did we come to believe this?
How did this become the norm?
And how did I get caught up too,
Despite my resistance to conform?
Is it because I gave it my energy
When people accused me of being aloof?
In my effort to resist what I called a lie
My actions denied the truth
Now expressing what I do not want
There’s no room for what I do
So I’m wondering how to transcend this trap
And once again, the truth pursue
© Copyright 2015 Pedro S. Silva II